Hi people...
It's been almost five years now since my last oobe and lucid dream and I can no longer do it no matter what...
As a kid I had many spontaneous oobes during sleeping which I believed to be just crazy real nightmares from which I couldn't wake up from but fortunately it stopped somewhere along puberty I think, well I guess I had one or two of them somewhere around my 19 maybe..
However I was 21 when I started practicing chinese martial arts, just for fun cause my ex-girlfriend said I should find myself some hobby or something like that..
Now, I'd like to point out that I wasn't doing any spiritual stuff, I was training with a guy which was more like a military type and we were really focusing on efective fighting (I'm really not into any spiritual stuff)
I'm mentioning this, because even though I'm not into any cchi energy or spiritual matter I still have some feeling there was some connection to my oobe experiences with this..
After couple of months, one weekend I was training on saturday morning and was very exhausted afterwards so when I came home, I immediately went to take a nap.. And I guess it was the extreme physical activity before that ignited couple of crazy lucid dreams...
I was able to enter that stage almost any time I went to take a nap or to sleep... But once I tried this at night it was really scary and without me having any control of it then I remembered that I had those nightmares couple of times before...
However I guess I was 22 I went again during weekend to take a nap during a sunny day, and I was really trying to observe what is happening as I'm falling asleep. And I tried even to refuse to fall asleep as I felt drifting away from body I just tried to stay focused... After ca. 20 minutes I suddenly heard like some giant door went shut and I heard very clearly a bell ringing (like a doorbell) right after that I saw incredibly strong light which then blended into extremely sharp and clear vision. I saw my self on the bed and everything around, I had no body, It was hard to move around and it all was much much more real than reality itself I felt like I'm able to focus at everything at once and it was in every way more vivid in colors and lighting than lucid dream, just without any crazy stuff happening...
I was very excited and very scared at the same time cause I knew this is no longer some hallucination or crazy dream.. I searched on the internet and for the first time I saw terms like lucid dreams or oobe...
Now the weird thing is, that since that one time, since I had this oobe and did some research of it, I'm having problems even trying to get into any of those states...
I'm starting to feeling enormous pain in every parts of my body whenever I try to do oobe.. I'm no longer able to get even lucid dream.. I tried everything... It's just no longer working...
I have no idea what should I do, I need some relief for my mind, my life is a mess and I feel like my mind is sick and I can't solve any problem in this state, I'm desperate...
Anyone had similar experience?
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