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    Posted: April/29/2005 at 12:09pm

This is the first time I've posted here, I just joined a few minutes ago..I had to do something. I'm 16 years old, and though I know that I have so much advantages, I just can't handle. Everything is spinning out of control for me, and I'm really scared of what I might do. I used to think that I hateed life and I wanted to die, but when I tried to kill myself I couldn't do it. I want to be alive, and I want to live, and Most of all I want to be happy. But I can't seem to connect my logic to my heart, and All I can do is cry.

Today I was sitting in my mother's car, alone, and I just burst into tears, because I saw a burger carton on the ground. It's so stupid and afterwards I was really wierded out, but I couln't help it.

I have never told anyone how I feel, I just find it so damn hard to open up and put myself out there. My parents don't know, my friends dont know. I just plaster on this smile when im around them, even though Im dying inside.

I really don't know what to do. I can't handle this anymore and Im scared of what I might do.

I've been cutting myself for about 3 years...whenever I hear people talking about self harmers, they always say that the person is looking for attention, but no one knows that I do it. I dont want attention. I dont want anyone looking at me. I feel to worthless for their attention.

 

Sorry for ranting I just needed to say those things to someone.

 

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You know its not wierd at all tht the burger carton moved you to tears. You obviously have a lot of pent up emotion and perhaps that carton reminded you of somthng..or maybe it just triggered some sort of raw emtional reaction. Things that make us cry rarely have to make sense..when it comes down to it the burger carton prbbly had very little to do with why you started to cry. One time in senior year in high school, we had this retreat, and i just started bawling during one of the "group sessions". Everyone wanted to know why i was crying, but to be truthful even i wasnt sure why, it was just kind of all this emotion that had to be let out in some form or another. That may be why you cut yourself, because you feel that you can't let others see your emotion for one reason or anthr, but its still there and has to be let out, and in your case it comes out in the cutting.I kno my family has no clue tht im depressed because i don't let them see it. I don't want to worry them. One time i let it slip that i had visited this forum on the net and evryone got really upset, so i was really careful from then on. Please hang in there, i cant promise that it will get better..but i can just sense you are such a wonderful person
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sometimes people have a chemical inbalance that causes them to become more emotional towards ceratin things, if not all the time. i would definately suggest getting counselling. iknow that shocks some people, and you probably have been told that many times, but it's important. the idea is to figure out what's wrong. you clearly do not want to go through it. um, something else you could research on is Chakras. you most definately have an inbalance of those. good luck!

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all ways with the science cd. ne way...i think u should find sum other way to get ur emotions out besides cutting. u should also force urself to talk to a paent or sumthin like that... a friend or sumone u trust...i used to be depressed all the tim but i talked to sumone and now i jus do that if i ever get depressed(which isnt very often ne more).


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Just kill urslef f*ggot

 

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